well here I am..this is gonna be fun I think, I really have no idea what I'm doing now but its 1:30 am and I have this sudden urge to start a blog...or something...
maybe I'm going through the teenage phase of " what the fuck am I doing here?"and "why is everyone else so much cooler and better then me?" you guys know those feeling right? I'm not the only one that goes through it right? because I duno...that could be a worry for me.
But what really buggs me is the fact that I should be feeling like this- there is no logical reason for me to be feeling like I am now, for example my lifestyle is slightly more...luxurious for lack of a better world...then most people may age, I am more traveled then most of my peers, I mean for fucks sake I just traveled from Perth, Australia to NYC by myself under the context of having never been to America and I'm only 15 yrs of age. But yet I a lacking so much that I want, for the life of me, I can't hang onto friends, I am not the person you go to to have fun, I'm "boring" and "weird" and I have no idea why? am I a jerk?... god I hope I'm not a Jerk...
well... so really I have no idea why I am starting this up...maybe to gain some self-worth...to figure out whats going on in my life. I never expected to write so much about what I'm feeling right now...but for some reason I don't regret writing it... for all I know nobody will ever come across this blog so really all it will be is some kind of electronic Journal... yea I'm in with the times :D
but for those who do find this blog, welcome to me
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